Too Furious to Fast

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There are two things that's going to happen next month. Fasting month and Internship. it's either I'm not ready for internship, or I'm not ready for the fasting month, or it's just that I'm not ready to face the fact that I'm gonna be doing my internship during the fasting month. There's another choice, I do not know if other people feel the same way, but I've been having this feeling anytime the Ramadan is about to come. Did you notice that a week before Ramadan, the Satan and Iblis and co, intensify their work on you? making your self angry, triggering your emotions, influencing your inner self to do things that never thought of doing (in Satanic ways)? We understand that during the Ramadan these creatures are locked from entering the world. Yet people still think that it is impossible that they are locked but we still can see violence are everywhere during this month. Simple: Not everyone understand what influences them, that they are not themselves when they are alone, being themselves may not be purely being them. So people retain, regain, redo, reinforce the influences and making 'them' theirs.

Hmm... Anyway, therefore this feeling might be the similar feeling that I used to have during pre-Ramadan, it's just for a different reason, different ways, different form. But the basic common logic is that those things are trying to slant my beliefs and behaviors.

HUAh... how grateful I am to realize this now. really, i just had this thought just now.
I am relieved.....so to say.